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Monday, October 06, 2008

sick.

my tummy hurts.
:( i donno why.
*sigh*
oh well.
what can ya do?
i feel like i'm gonna puke. and that might be a good or nice thing to do. can't really tell yet. letcha know when i do.
i miss my kiel. and he's so far away. two weeks. two weeks.
*sigh*
*puke*
not. i wish.
maybe hten i'd feel better.

like, seriously, though. What is wrong with me? i thought i had figured this feeling out. and yet it' back. i thought it was done and gone but perhaps not. i guess the people i thought needed/loved me don't. and those i never wouda guessed have been there for me in more ways than imaginable.
i owe you all so much.

posted by Mags at 10/06/2008 09:50:00 AM | 1 comments

more ramblings.

well, must admit i've got nothing worthwhile to update on. life is as shitty as ever.

well, not really. i mean, life was going really well there for a while. i just got sick and tired of being down all the time and now i'm like... gah. i guess trying to hide it doesn't really help. stuff with my mom isn't bad anymore but stuff with friends is. i cut again last night which was really stupid but i guess in some ways i feel like no one likes me best. like, i'm not top in anyone's book and like that's the stupidest most irrational thought ever and i know that. like, just because your friends have stuff going on doesn't mean they don't like you best. i just need to take a damn chill pill and calm the fuck down.
but, it's hard sometimes, i guess. i don't know what's wrong with me. i wish it was something i could easily fix. but, like it's not the cutting that is the problem, you know? like, i'll just come up with something else if i don't cut. i need to think about WHY i'm cutting. and deal with that.
sounds SO EASY when put that way.
well, it's not.
for what feels like the first time - i really have no idea what's wrong with me. like, usually i have this feeling of knowing what's wrong - i just don't want to admit it to myself.... but this time i'm really lost. and it's like there's not a whole lot i can do about it. that was stupid to type. of course there is. i'm just not deleting it because.....i don't know. but, of course there is something i can do. people get over this kind of thing all the time.
sigh.
ah well.
much love.

posted by Mags at 10/06/2008 09:14:00 AM | 1 comments

 
my pet! my pet! Carefree
You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have
your pet peeves, but other than that, you're
mainly calm. Blending in with your
surroundings, you're the type of person who
everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks
jokes at social gatherings - after all,
laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you
pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality,
you could be the next Einstein. water goddess
You are the Goddess of the Seas, or the Ocean
Goddess, or the Goddess of the Lake, or even
the River Goddess. Lets just say the Goddess of
all things Water!! Your emeotions change just
like the tides and, yes admit it, you can be a
little bit more emotional then any of the other
goddess's(sp?). But, even though you are
emotional, you are one of the stronget
goddess's(sp?)!!! Your power jewel is an
Aquamarine(me:didnt see that one comming*note
the sarcasm*). Your colors are any type of blue
and sometimes green. Your metal is Uranium(me:
don't ask) and your animal (me:well in this
case 'half-animal') form you take is a mermaid cancer
You are a Cancer, the funniest sign of the zodiac.
You are family-oriented, loyal, lovable, kind,
sensitive, intuitive and imaginitive! You are
very, very protective of your friends, and you
give them great advice! The animal you are most
like is, a crab! Crabs are very smart, mabe
thats why they have lived for over 500 million
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hide their soft-selfs (just like you and your
emotions). And just like the crab, you have two
ways to go in life, the hard lifeless shell or
the heart!
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You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul
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~*~Result nr 8~*~

Your power is: Extreme healing powers


Explanation: When injured your body
focuses on the wound and heals rapidly, within
a few seconds. This makes you pretty much hard
to kill and you can help people in danger using
yourself as a shield. Almost anything is
possible in combat but you prefer looking after
others. In bad purposes you can do the same as
above but for evil intentions.
This power fits you pretty good since you want
to help those around you, and when you are
pretty much unstopable, that's not an obsticle.
You are caring and nurturing and are more a
pascifist. Even if you know there are much
unfairness in the world you still chose to see
from a positive angle because you belive in the
good of this world. You are probably friendly
and have a soft spot for people who are not
accepted. Though to others you come of as naive
and gullible. You could be taken advantagde of
if the wrong person comes around. Even if you
could be seen as pure, you are not that
completely since you're human and make mistakes
too.
Negative aspects: If your naiveness has
been making you blind for too long you could go
into dark thinking.



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You are Sirius Black! You are the kind of person
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people you like. Try to be kind to others and
forget about the past.

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